2015 was a difficult year. The problems began before the year even started. I was working at an independently owned bookstore. They were struggling and eventually let go the store manager the week between Christmas and New Years. Terrible! The writing was on the wall for a long time and despite what others told me I stuck it out until the store went bankrupt three months later. It turned out to be a great decision but at the time I felt like my life was spiralling out of control. This wasn’t because I loved my job (I hated it), but because I didn’t have any direction in life. The job provided me an income and stability which distracted me from taking the time to discover what I really wanted to do.
I’m thankful that I live in a country that has employment insurance because it allowed me to reevaluate my life and goals. I wish I could say that I journeyed that process well but that would be a lie. It was a rough period where I spent most days in an existential crisis. I would spend hours scrolling through job opportunities only to find myself frustrated. I would wander the house screaming periodically, “WHAT AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE?” During this time I tried everything from a multi-level networking business to getting my personal training certificate. Obviously, those opportunities didn’t workout. In the song, Part of It by Relient K they sing, “Perspective is a lovely hand to hold.” They’re right. Looking back on this past year I laugh at myself because I have something that I didn’t then, perspective.
A year later I find myself happy. Not in an everything-has-worked-out-and-I-have-everything-that-I’ve-ever-wanted-and-everything-is-working-the-way-I-want-it-to kind of happy but something much deeper. I’ve found contentment. I know what I want and what I have to do to get there. Further, I have the amazing privilege working with foster kids. It’s the most satisfying job I have ever had and it allows me to pursue my dream of starting and owning my own business. I’ve gone through adversity and I’ve come out the other side being a better version of myself.
Last year I posted 3 goals I had for this blog. I’m happy to announce that I’ve sort of done them all! They were:
1. Be consistent with posts
2. Learn and master new dishes
3. Continue to brew new beers/ciders and begin to develop my own recipes.
This year I’m keeping these goals and adding to them.
1. Grow in my skills; knife, cooking techniques, baking, writing and photography.
2. Register thehesitantchef.com as a small business.
3. Become more involved in my local food and drink culture.
4. Finally, my last goal is financial. I would like to make $10,000.00 from this blog and the opportunities that come from it.
2015 was a difficult year but it was a good year and I’m grateful for it. I’m ready for 2016!
Are you ready for 2016? What are your goals for the upcoming year?